Take it or Suck it!

So lately I have been doing some deep thinking, I know it's a scary thought and no smoke alarms went off or anything! Well being where I am in my life at this moment I am very happy. We have gone through some crap over the past few years and everyone handles stress differently so I'm not even going to try and compare to anyone else. But that's just it, I was comparing. I was not happy with my body/weight. I feel like no matter how much I work out I look like a blob! I was told once by someone that I was not a good mother because I chose to put my child on time out for not sharing, so naturally I took a look at my mothering skills and wondered if what I was doing was really screwing up my kids!? I would look at other husbands and wonder why they were so "perfect" and wonderful. I would do all these things that drove me up a wall and made me crazy as well as my husband! I know we are ALL different but so many people have this "keeping up with the Jones" mentality and I think I got caught up in all that. So I have been taking a long hard look at ME.

I am not looking for any kind of pat on the back or "atta girl" from anyone, except myself. But I do workout hard and I may not be as petite as I used to be, but I'M NOT FAT! I have literally had to beat myself stupid to finally understand that. I have always had a spare tire, even when I weighed 98 pounds, it's my family curse. So after two kids did I really think that it was going to magically go away? Because if I did then I could get rich off this crack I'm smoking! Moving on...

I have had to consider what that mean person told me about my parenting and I have come to find out that if we are all being put under a microscope then we all suck! Sometimes we do things not by the book because that's what works for us and our child's personality. No matter how many classes you take on Childhood development or any kind of class your not an expert so keep your nose out of my business and let me do what works for me! So I'm not a bad mother, in fact I'm a pretty darn good mother!

And most importantly when people are in the public eye they always put on their best face. Of course people look perfect on the outside because that's what they want you to see. No matter what you see on the outside, you have NO idea what is going on behind closed doors. After careful evaluation I have looked at my husband, and he is a great guy! He has his faults but he does things for me that not many other husbands do for their wives or families. He is sweet in his own way like hiding notes for me regularly that say the sweetest things. I could not have asked for a harder worker and he dotes over me. It's kinda hard to see those things when your always looking at other's and not what's right in front of you. I am a very lucky woman, my girls are very lucky!

I know who I am now. I have always looked for who I wanted to be and change the inevitable. Why would I want to be a cookie cutter anyway? That's boring and not at all who I am. I have never really done things "by the book" so why start now? This is who I am, take it or suck it! I am a great friend who would do almost anything in my power for my friends. I have a pooch. I have a fantastic husband who I love more than anything. I am a great mother bear who loves my little cubs and would do anything to protect them from vicious people who mean them harm. This is me.

Summer O fun...

This post is long over due. I guess I have had a pretty good excuse as to why I have not blogged in days, but now I'm playing catch up. Scott's birthday was in June and we had his fun filled birthday week. One night we had some friends over and it meant the world to him to have good friends to share his day with. Good friends are so hard to come by and having them there for him meant a lot.

This was his birthday cake, made by our realtor, and it was fabulously sweet!
The threesome...
On his birthday Scott and I headed over to Glen Ivy and pampered ourselves. I love him and I am so grateful for him. We had a lot of fun together that day.
We went to dinner with family and friends to celebrate this wonderful man. We had so much fun except that he had to do the hymlic on Leah and then she threw up all over me! I'm just happy she was ok and he has the training that helped our baby girl breath again. It was pretty scary.
Our ward had an Independence Day activity and we had so much fun! They had a parade with all the kids, games and lots of great people to get to know.
Leah and Hannah had more fun pushing each other around than anything. I love those moments when they are actually getting along and enjoying the built in best friend!
On the 4th we headed over to my parents house and enjoyed the company and fireworks. The girls love their GG and papa so much and I love to see their faces light up when they see them.

We headed down to the beach and it's so great to have it close by! And we were lucky enough to have a bunch of friends come and it was so fun watching the kids all play with each other! I had more fun watching them then enjoying the beach! Hannah and Damon are inseparable and if they can keep it PG for 20 more years I'll be one happy mamma! They already are planning their wedding and we are trying to talk them out of it and convince them that they are just friends, but it's so stinking cute! And I would not mind her in laws if things worked out that way. hahahaha
We brought the B-man with us and he had so much fun. He loves the girls and we absolutely love having him around!
These are some girls I grew up with. We had so much fun chit-chatting the whole day. I love them all and I'm so lucky to have people who really know the real Vikki and still hang out with me :)
Leah had so much fun playing and eating that I hardly saw her the whole time. She is such a social butterfly like her mom. I seriously can't get enough of her sweet little face.
This is just a small handful of the million kids that were there. They all played so nicely together.
This past week we took Hannah on a date night to the Circus. We had so much fun!
Watching her face fill with excitement was the most incredible feeling! We all agreed that our favorite part were the 7 dirt bike riders in a metal ball, simply amazing. But to get that one on one time with her was great. She has so much intelligence and is so bright, and freaking cute! She really is a sweet special little girl and we are sooooooooooooo lucky to be her parents!
I love my family and it has been so nice to have Scott home for a few weeks to get us settled in our home. We have amazing children and I love every minute with them, even when they make me feel like I need to scratch my ear drums out to get rid of the annoying obnoxious whining. So far we have had a great summer and I look forward to every moment with my family.